为什么我不再见马列克了？

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Amazing, my body’s reaction to seeing him. Autonomic and merciless, and because of that, damn scary. My stomach hollows out and the back of my throat feels full, like a fist shoved back there, or…

But fuck him; it makes me angry and . . .